Actually few years recently, I was in terrible situation that I sometimes didn't want to continue this life. So many sadnesses happened to me, about family, about someone I used to love, about friends, about job. I had hard days in my life even until now. That's why I decided to travel somewhere.
As my promise before, I chose Thailand. And because I love Thailand and Thai people so much. But the most regretful thing is that this time I was not free traveling, I traveled with a tour agent.
Traveling with tour agent is not very terrible. It has certaint good points. That I don't have to think about where I should go, ehat I should eat, which means of transportation I should use, which hotel I should stay... But the only bad thing is that I lost my freedom. But I realized freedom is very important to me. Lost of freedom I can not be myself. So I decided next time where ever I travel, I will go by myself.
This time I came back to Thailand, I traveled to Pattaya City where I never been there before. I had chance to see beautiful ladyboys' performance. I really admire them.
On those days, when I was in Pattaya, Bangkok was bombed at some areas. People are scared but I don't. I think that if my destiny is died in bomb then I certainly meet my destiny, I will not avoid. If not I am okay. I accept my destiny.
I come to Bangkok when bombs were clear. I am happy when I was in Bangkok. It's not as last time when I can deeply go inside every alleys, small street, markets in Bangkok. This time I don't have chance to go like that because I have to go with tour agent.
But the most valuable time in Bangkok is few freedom hours when tour agent lets us do freedom activities. That time I can meet again my Thai friends. They are still wonderful as before. They drived me around the city and talk about so many memories between us. This make me feel so happy. I am really thankful them.
After 5 days in Thailand, I had to come back to Vietnam and continue to work (continue working till die - I think). A friend asked me why I have to work till die like that. I can now reply him that working till die for these trip is worthy and I am willing to work to die for these trip. I realized that I need to do what ever I want because this life is so short. Who knows what will wait for us tomorrow. A bomb or something else. So I am thinking for another trip, but this time is a very different trip to somewhere that I never been to and I can see what I never see. And if I am still hesitate, I may not see it in my whole life. Maybe a trip to a very far country in the winter, maybe.
